Photographer: Maria Karpova

"It's sad that in this day and age, people have to die just so we can say something nice about them. It's that I have to wait until my heart stops beating for you to tell me how much you care. I don't want to wait until I'm not alive for you to tell me how much you regret not saying sorry and that our fight was stupid. It shouldn't have to take my last breath for you to tell me "what you've always wanted to say" but were too scared to. I don't want to have to wait until I'm dead to know the truth. When you hear the cliche lines of "we only have one life", that that shit to heart" - Anonymous 

I had to share this quote with you because the past couple of months have been a helicopter ride - bumpy and scary but somehow there was always something positive to see out of the whole experience. When thinking about what has happened, I began to realise that this quote sums up everything about the importance of time and speaking up. A lot of people nowadays take time for granted and take people for granted and it's quiet a shame that we don't realise this or we realise this when it's too late. I have been guilty of this, but I learnt my lesson the hard way. We truly only have to live up to our best potential and fight for what we want and do what makes your heart & soul happy. I realised that I don't want to lose something because of the fact that I didn't appreciate it enough. I don't want to go a day without making the people around me feel special or tell them how much I love them. I don't want to wake 365 days a year and not chase my dream right in front of me. I don't want to take time for granted and let a moment slip away faster than I can catch it. The same way I feel about CANCER. 

There are so many people in this world affected by something that they physically have no control over. It's something that comes faster than lightning. I will be honest with you, I don't know much about cancer but one thing I do know is that everything I have mentioned above, about time and appreciation is something that I'm sure loads of cancer patients take seriously. I was on a bus in London, when an old man in a wheelchair, with his wife pushing him onto the bus entered. The old man looked very sick, yet I could not pin point what was wrong. His wife so joyful and bright, told the lady next to her about the beautiful memories they shared together in the past and how he has been diagnosed with cancer. You can just see and hear how much he loved her husband so much. Whilst, I overheard them talking something deep into my heart and soul said: 'I can heal this man, if you believe Me and have faith in Me, I can cure him. Lay your hands on him and Pray for Him. Tell him about Me.' This was the first time in my life, I have ever heard God speaking to me. Now because, I was overwhelmed by this experience, I could not do anything but I burst into tears. So many things ran into my head that moment: what if the old man did not believe in God? what if I humiliated myself? Now, yes what if the old man didn't believe and no I wouldn't have humiliated myself because a prayer has power. Everyone needs one despite their circumstances. I believe deep down in my heart that God heals anyone and anything. This was the day God was going to do a miracle. Now I am not a miracle healer but God is. And for people that don't understand this or what this means, all I can say is that if so many people can be healed from cancer, do you think miracles are not true? 'All things are possible for one who believes.' Mark 9:23

In the film, The Fault In Our Stars (2014) Augustus says 'Some infinities are are bigger than other infinities'. This is true. Throughout the movie, you begin to realise that even through pain there is joy. A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.'  Proverbs 17:22. I believe that old man's wife had to be cheerful not only for herself but her husband. She had to still live a joyful life, just like Augustus did in the film. 

The late Oscar de la Renta, died of cancer but his stepdaughter described him as a person who  lived with "tremendous grace, great dignity...'. Yes, not many people knew he had cancer but he lived his life joyfully. My point is that cancer is the devastating and horrendous sickness ever but no that you are not alone. My heart goes out to you. If you believe and need a prayer for cancer let our church for you (submit prayer request here) and DON'T GIVE UP! 

Cancer CAN BE cured, so it's important to take precaution. Get yourself checked for it before it spreads. Listen to your what your body is telling you. Look for signs over and over again. Not all cancer is painful. This month we dedicate this post to everyone who has cancer and for cancer awareness. My heart goes out to you and God Bless you!


Much Much Love, xoxo



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